Never Again!

Okay, it's been quite a while since I have been to this blog, but I'm back once again.  Since my last post, I've gained some weight, but I went through a whole pregnancy and had a beautiful baby girl!  Natalie is 14 months old now, so it's time to get serious about losing the baby weight.  So here goes.

I am now doing a church weight loss group on Tuesdays, so that is the day I weigh-in.  Otherwise I will keep the basic format the same.  I will take measurements and record them soon (tomorrow? we'll see ...)  I do find it very amusing looking at the weight I was the last time I posted.  Oh how I wish I was that that weight now!  (It's only 11 lbs less than my current weight, so it's within reach.)  I thought I was so fat then! So now I am REALLY fat ... I try to tell myself that I look okay, but I pretty much hate every picture of myself.  I want to clarify that I do not hate myself -- just pictures.  I do not believe that all my self worth is tied up in my body image.  But let's face it:  I do want to look better, feel better, wear my cuter smaller clothes, etc.  However, all of that said, I actually think I have a better self image now than I ever have in my life.  Thank you therapy!  And getting older and more mature.

Oh, and I have changed my weight goal since my last post.  I would like to get to 165 lbs, and then see how I look and feel.  I think 150 may be a little too daunting right now, and I don't want to get discouraged.  So I have adjusted that.  And for now I am keeping this blog private, my eyes only, but I may eventually decide to invite some people.

I started a few weeks ago at 200.8 lbs.  I PROMISED MYSELF ON THAT DAY THAT I WILL NEVER SEE THE 200's ON THE SCALE AGAIN!!  (Not even if I have another baby.)

I weigh myself on Tuesday mornings, right after I wake up.  I go pee, strip down to my birthday suit and hop on the scale.

January 5th, 2010
STARTING WEIGHT:  200.8 LBS

This Week's Weight: 195.6
This Week's Loss/Gain: 3.2 lbs.
Total Loss: 5.2 lbs
Weight goal: 165 ( 30.6 lbs to go!)